The writer reveals the truth this time. Why did he quit playing guitar 25 years back all of a sudden? The disgust is still with him even though he has begun to laugh at his plight these days.
Students quit their tuition centers for silly reasons. “Amme, I don’t understand anything.” “Amme, the teacher doesn’t know anything.” “Amme, I am too tired to go both to the school and the tuition centre. I have to quit one of them.”
I quit my tuition home because of a teapoy. Yeah, I’m talking about that small table on the drawing hall on which we serve out tea and snacks. I must say, I am indebted to that piece of furniture.
“You have no sense of rhythm, Manu.”
“I don’t want that rhythm, sir.”
“There is a technique to pick it up, Manu.”
“I will pick it up from my home, sir.”
“I will show you how, Manu”
“I don’t want to see HOW, sir.”
I paid fees for guitar class.
But instead of guitar, I picked up the steps of thiruvathira or oppana (those dance forms where you go around a lighted lamp or a bridegroom) from my tuition class. I frenziedly tripped around a teapoy, waving a big guitar at my back to shoo away one excited guru who wanted to give me a crash course in rhythm.
“You are not sitting, Manu.”
“I will sit when I reach home, sir,” I yelled as I completed another round around the teapoy, gasping for breath.
He was a perfect teacher until a month back. But then, suddenly one morning his wife left him for some reason. He was now all alone in his home, without a woman. I don’t remember exactly when I checked into that vacancy in his mind.
Perhaps, it was not just the case with me. I could tell from the abraded floor around the teapoy that he also kept his other students busy at other times.
“You could catch fever, if you run like this, Manu.”
“I like to have an occasional fever, sir.”
I had little courage to smash his bloody head with my guitar (I had rehearsed it so many times at home), but I managed to keep the meat he was hankering after far away from his plate. When he was at the east, I leaped to the west of the teapoy. When he got to the north, I jumped to south India. When he was above the teapoy, I went under. All my guitar classes became suddenly exciting with me scampering around his home, with a guitar waving violently at my back.
“Manu, I have read about new techniques of picking up rhythm. I will teach you. Stop.”
“Send them to me by post, sir. I won’t stop.”
I was mortally scared even while I sprinted around the teapoy imagining what if I trip and fall and go unconscious. Bloody hell! I would be waking from that sleep as his wife!!! Thankfully that never happened, I remained single.
“You are still running, Manu.”
“Yes sir, you are too.”
All that the master (#*&%) at the other end of the teapoy wanted was to make me sit by him, and let him tap on my lap to give me a sense of rhythm as I plucked the strings of the guitar. All I noticed with my bulbous eyes while I sat were those fine little advancements, the face of his palm made with each single tap on my lap. Up, up, up, they were going up, up, up, up, up… my legs were not so infinitely lengthy and would soon run out of land, I was scared as the hand went up, up, up.
By the time his hands reached four inches above my knee I would spring up on my feet to play another round of thiruvathira around the teapoy. He would follow me animatedly, arms stretched, his fingers itching to drill the sense of rhythm into me.
“You can’t walk and play guitar, Manu.”
“See. I can walk and play guitar, sir.”
“But now you are running, Manu!”
“Perhaps, I can run and play guitar, sir.”
I was only 13. A teenage boy could never whine aloud that he was being ‘seen like that’ by a man, his guru.
A teenager has a fully-blown ego, which wanted to prove to the world that he had become a man and can take care of things, all by himself. And he would be ready to run the rest of his life around a teapoy rather than announce to the world that he had something in him which had set the loins of a grown-up man into fire.
“You are very lazy, Manu. You are not going to guitar class, these days?”
“No running today, amma.”
“Sorry, no class today, amma.”
My mother scolded me all the time (Amma, I know you are reading this now. This was the reason I didn’t want to go. I was not learning guitar. Most of the time I was just running around). When the pressure got intense, I decided to go to the class again after a month’s gap. I hoped that his wife would have come back by then. I went wielding my guitar as a sword, ready to set my legs into thiruvathira mode.
I opened the door to his drawing room and was shocked. The room was empty save for a couple of chairs, and a divan, placed closely against a wall. “Hi hi hi…” the master came welcoming me with a chuckle.
“Manu, come in. See. I exchanged the teapoy with this divan,” he beamed.
I ran out with a scream throwing away my stringed sword.
i loved this 🙂
Thank you Glenda
My face wore a skewed expression throughout. My facial muscles were struggling for that grey area between amused, disgust, shock and confusion. Confused because I am not sure if your master was really making advancements towards you or if it was your imagination. Read : “All that the poor master (#*&%) at the other end of the teapoy wanted was to make me sit by him, and let him tap on my lap to give me a sense of rhythm as I plucked the strings of the guitar. All I noticed with my bulbous eyes while I sat were those fine little advancements, the face of his palm made with each single tap on my lap. Up, up, up, they were going up, up, up, up, up… my legs were not so infinitely lengthy and would soon run out of land, I was scared as the hand went up.”
Aswathy, I wanted to place this in that grey area. It was not my imagination. There is a tailpiece to this story. The master and his son hit the headlines many years later in a sex scandal. But luckily I escaped him on a narrow margin, so that I could laugh now thinking about my fears. There is something hilarious when I look back at it through the years.
Now I know why the guitar at your home remains untouched. Past also ages with time, I guess. How else could such a terrifying thing in the past sober down and become a thing to be smiled at now?
Yeah, Sambhu. It ages with time. We laugh sometimes at our gravest follies we committed in the past.
My dear friends, one of my students has asked me a very pertinent question. Would/Can a woman narrate such an incident which happened in her life in a lighthearted manner? Would/Can she ever laugh at the way she was chased around by a pervert when she was young? I remained shocked at that question. I didn’t have an answer. Do you?
hard to believe this story….. i enjoyed reading it…. 😀 Better you stopped guitar class…. but you could have joined somewhere else…. 😀
Baishi, I can laugh at the incident now. But at that time, I was pretty shocked. I even began to hate guitar, which brought in bitter memories. There is another music teacher near my home who is also notorious. My neighbour(girl) had to discontinue because of that bloody fellow. I don’t mean that all music teachers are like them. But there are many rotten ones among the teachers.
i too joined guitar class. But i couldn’t continue. I too had some bitter memories. But not like the ones you had. so it’s still an unfulfilled dream….. 🙁
You have made light of an episode for a boy of that age…but at least you knew where to draw the line… and not being able to tell anyone at home then… now you can view it in a lighter vein though it had left its mark…Well you survived to tell the tale… 🙂
Geetha teacher, yeah. I was more lucky than courageous. What you said is right: I’ve survived to tell a tale.
a very relevant issue told in the most light hearted way possible..
Well, you have/have a hand full of great experiences sir 😛